Another Year

As I approach my 28th birthday I can’t help but be disappointed in myself.  I thought by 28 I’d have my shit together.  I never would have thought that I’d be living with my parents, unemployed and wondering what the hell I’m doing.  It’s so easy to focus on what’s possibly ahead of me that I forget all that’s behind me and how far I’ve come.

So this is what I have accomplished:

2 degrees (Health Sciences and Nursing)

Debt free!

Found my passion (I think)

Made some lifelong friends along the journey

 

I’m probably missing a lot from the list but at least I’m looking at how far I’ve come.

Hippy Dippy

I decided a few weeks ago that I would try to be open minded and see a Naturopath to see if she could help me with PMS, mood swings and hot flashes. My initial appointment was thorough, which I liked. I made another appointment for the next week where she would make up and discuss a health plan with me. That was a little overwhelming. I was presented with many different options to try and regulate hormones and detox my liver (an underrated organ). My herbs should be in on Monday to pick up.
Today I started with apple cider vinegar. I’ve heard many positives about ACV. I’m supposed to do 1 Tablespoon before meals. I’m starting with 1 tablespoon in the am. I’ve felt kind of nauseous so far. Don’t know if that’s from the vinegar or something else going on. I seem to feel nauseous a lot so it’s nothing new.
So here’s to the start of something new and hoping to feel better. I’ll keep updating.

Why?

This is going to be a super random post, no food, no crafting, just me going on and on about life. So if you are wanting something other than that, you can just go ahead and skip reading this altogether.

I have a very hard time shutting down my brain. Honestly, I think too much. I’m constantly trying to learn something even if it is of no importance whatsoever. So not being in school is kind if driving me nuts, not like I wasn’t nuts before. I’m honestly thinking about studying for fun. Yes you read that correctly. I feel like the longer I’m out of school and unemployed the dumber I am becoming. I am constantly forgetting things lately and I have a great memory, but I will go into the other room to ask my mom and question, seriously like 15 steps and forget what the hell I wanted to talk to her about. I’m going crazy, I’m getting old, is this dementia? If you don’t use it you lose it comes to mind (I can remember that) and I’m scared. Which brings me to another point…
I have been out of high school for 10 years in May. What the hell have I done in10 years?!? Gone to a lot of school, wasted a lot of $$$ getting an education and feel no where closer to where I want to be. I know where I want to be finally, but am hating this whole experience necessary bullshit. I mean I understand the reasoning, but I hate it. I might find it more appealing if I could actually gain some damn experience.
Anyways, returning to my previous high school statement, I’d like to think that this 10 years has been a positive experience, I’ve changed quite a bit into a person I think I like. I hated high school, I’d like to say every minute of it was terrible, but I don’t think anyone can see every minute of anything you endured for 4 miserable years was so bad that every minute sucked. I think the majority of people despised high school for various reasons but mine would have to be that I was bullied without even realizing it was a bullying type thing. If I was the person I am today I would have punched that asshole in the face (yes my bully was a guy) probably kicked him in the balls, ran over him, whatever else comes to mind. Another thing, I hold grudges, one thing that happy people supposedly aren’t supposed to do. I would like to think high school might have been tolerable if I would have realized what was going on, but we’ll never know. Life would for sure be a lot different and maybe I could be a happy person, maybe. What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, right? But can we truly judge someone on who they were in high school? Or even more so on who we thought they were? High school is full of SO MUCH drama and gossip and bullshit. If you are still judging me on something you believed to be true that you heard 10+ years ago you might need a reality check. And why does no one tell you the drama doesn’t stop? You are all excited to finally get out of high school and move on with life and leave the drama behind, but no, some people live and feed off making others miserable. The drama lives on, sure it might be different and the setting is different, but it’s still there. People suck.

Maybe with my non-school self I’ll start writing a book, too bad my memory is failing, or maybe I’m purposely blocking some of the bullshit out. It’s probably better that way.

Wine Club, 1st meeting

My friend Lynn decided it would be a wonderful idea to start a wine club amongst her friends. The idea was to bring a bottle of wine with you to share with the group and provide a small fee to help the hostess pay for the food provided. Of course it wouldn’t be a wine party without cheese!
Since I have too much extra time on my hands I offered to help with decor and such. We made a trip to Trader Joes and Costco for the cheese and some nuts. We might have went a little overboard. Here’s the spread

We had 9 cheeses including pecan cranberry cheese balls and a baked Brie provided by yours truly. The balls were a big hit. I found the recipe here. I chose not to put the sticks in them. Here’s how mine turned out

I should have gotten a picture after they were beautifully plated. Oh well.
I cut out the wine tags and everyone put their names on them.

Of course the men were invited to join and most even tried the wine. Although they had to be men and segregate themselves. Ha

Overall I think the 1st meeting was a hit!

22 Things Happy People Do Differently

I really should follow these. I told Matt I have too good of a memory to not hold grudges. Ha

Successify!

This article is from Chiara Fucarino. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: This article is not intended to address those with clinical depression or other mental illnesses.

There are two types of people in the world: those who choose to be happy, and those who choose to be unhappy. Contrary to popular belief, happiness doesn’t come from fame, fortune, other people, or material possessions. Rather, it comes from within. The richest person in the world could be miserable while a person living in the slums of a third world country could be happy and content. I have spent plenty of time amongst both groups to have seen it first hand. Happy people are happy because they make themselves happy. They maintain a positive outlook on life and remain at peace with themselves.

The question is: how do they do that?

It’s quite simple. Happy people have good habits that enhance their lives. They do…

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Adventures in baking

The lemon trees in Phoenix are already giving huge lemons. Dad brought some home from The Lamar’s house (thanks Momma T and Brady!).

Look at how huge those things are! If you know me you know I love to bake so I searched Pinterest for a recipe I had pinned forever ago and never tried. I came across this one and it was the winner to try today. I followed the recipe (something I never do)! My only addition was a little lemon juice to the crust, don’t know if it made any difference. They turned out GREAT!

I’m glad I got a picture before I cut into them! Jodi loved them 😀

A Rant

The job search is bleak. It’s quite discouraging in many ways. I finally find something I think I want to apply for and find that it’s only for BSN (bachelor of science nursing) or I don’t meet one requirement such as GPA. Then maybe I do apply and get a rejection letter that never states why I’m rejected.
But my #1 thing making me upset right now is every time I do a google search for new grad RN job it brings up this great news article that makes me want to throw my phone at the wall. As if I’m not discouraged enough even google search has to throw it in my face that no one wants to hire a new grad. I don’t need to be reminded.

Test Post

My 1st official post. I thought it’d be easier to write my ideas here, but I’m currently coming up blank. I’ve been unstimulated since graduating and have been doing a lot of projects that maybe you all would like to follow.

My first project and maybe the most frustrating is trying to get my friend Matt organized and do some home improvements. I didn’t get a before shot, but this is what the cabinets looked like before (picture is from guest bath).

And after lots of work (and many brilliant ideas from Megan that didn’t work) this is the finished product:

There’s still lots of work to be done at Matt’s house and I’m hoping he’ll continue with the little home improvements once I move (which will hopefully be sooner than later). The paint is Behr in banana cream with a semi-gloss finish. All furnishings were bought at Home Depot.

My next little project is fun crafting. I’ve always loved crafting and came across a great site with different ways to make wreaths. I’ve never made a wreath but I thought, why not? I’ve made 2 so far but neither is finished to my complete liking, the downfall of a crafty perfectionist. The picture is blurry and it still needs a cute ribbon to hang on and maybe some more pinwheels, but I really like it so far

Also with my free time I’ve been cooking, a lot! I’ve found I love the crockpot. And Pinterest is an addiction.

One of my favorite “projects” is being the Nurse Nanny. Wonder if I could really make a career out of it?!? I know that if/when I move I will miss the families and children I’ve made connections with. Currently I have 4 families I watch children for, 4 adorable little boys and 1 princess.

I think that’s all for now.

Oh the excitement of unemployment!